Here and Now
This year has been one heck of a crazy roller-coaster ride. But I have learned a lot and became a stronger person.
Ive learned that not everyone means what they say.
That people will hurt you no matter what they promise.
I’ve learned that sometimes it’s just better to let go.
I’ve learned not only, how to forgive myself, but how to forgive others.
Ive learned that if I don’t like where I’m standing, it’s up to me to start walking.
I’ve learned that death comes when you least expect it, but that it happens for a reasons I may not know.
I’ve rided of some people in my life that brought me down, and let some new ones in. And someone who can make me smile no matter what.
I would not be anywhere without the amazing support of my family, who put up with my nonsense and took it with a grain of salt. I love every single one of them.
As it gets closer to the holidays, I get more and more excited to spend this time with my family. I have do much to be grateful for. And it’s time to appreciate it.
And last but not least I would like to thank Lacey and John for making me a better person. You all are who I live for and help me realize that it’s okay to be a kid. I love you both so much.
This next year better watch out because I’m about to give it the fight of a life time.
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Life is full or crazy twists, you just never know how things are going to turn out. Could be exactly how you wanted them to or way on a totally different path.
I’ve spent time trying to figure out what I want and I still really don’t know… But one thing I’ve figured out is you have to work for it, it won’t just fall in your lap. No matter how bad I or you want it to.
I’ve spent all this time blaming others, claiming life isn’t fair, and blah blah blah. When really yeah some of that plays a role, but maybe if I would have been more honest with myself or even with someone else things would have ended differently… But it doesn’t matter.
You’ve got to go after what you want, and try… Fate plays a role, but I’m thinking that someone else does too….
Sitting pool side … :)
Today is the first day I’ve actually had time to reflect on these past few weeks…. They have been crazy!
I’ve had shows interviews and even on tv but the biggest thing I did was try out for American Idol!
But don’t get to excited… I didn’t make it. Oh well it wasn’t my time. I had the time of my life while auditioning though. I met some of the most amazing people and went with some awesome people. There was not a dull moment. I laughed so hard and had a ton of fun. I would not trade that for the world.
So even though it has been pure chaos and that I’ve have barely had time to breathe… It’s been fun! :)
Everyone have an awesome 4th of July and don’t forget to than all the troops :)
Love Nicole Dawn xoxoxo
Sometimes You Can’t Ignore the Truth…
This morning was an awesome moment in my career for me. I was on the news, on TV. I was seeing my dreams come true right before my eyes. Reality was out of my grasp, and I was living in the moment…
These are the moments every artist dreams of. The moment where you are getting a little credit for all the work you do… Someone recognizing your talent and erasing all the doubts in your mind for at least a few minutes in time. It was the feeling of “okay this IS what I am suppose to be doing”
But while I was off living out my dreams, and messing up live interviews, there was something else going on that I was not aware of. That was affecting the ones I love the most.
I never know what to say and I never will… You see the ones you love going through something you never want to see anyone go through. Sometimes you don’t know how you feel yourself and handle the emotions you’re going through.
Don’t ever take life for granted. Live it to the fullest. Say I love you. Say I miss you. Mend the wounds while you still have a chance….
Someday you might realize that all the stupid stuff you spend so much time worrying about is Nothing. Because it is. It’s just nothing.
I will love you forever and I will be here for you…
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I have nothing to say. I wish I did. If only I could organize in words what is going through my head…
Today was a good day.
I was a stupid kid all day.
From being way to loud in a restaurant at lunch to dancing to the Harry Potter Club Mix in a movie theater parking lot.
Lunch was fun, Way to loud and said things we should not have said.
Then we raced a car all the way down the highway, which was just excitement in its self.
I went to the movies and acted like an even bigger kid. We we’re way way way to loud. Screaming laughing, hiding and throwing things. It didn’t hurt that the movie was completely hilarious too :)
I love my friends and I love my life. God has blessed me in so many ways… and it doesn’t hurt that I think I wrote another kick butt song today either.
What I’ve realized is somethings don’t always go your way and you have to find the good in everything…Because there is something good, you just have to find it. And I have all faith that things will work out in the end. Because when you have days like these, you just know what life is about…. :)
This is me… Take it or leave it.
I love to fast and I fall to hard.
I wear my heart on my sleeve and leave it for the world to see.
I care to much and I’m way to nice.
I love laughing and I’m really loud.
I say stupid things and I’m a klutz.
I make mistakes and I say things I don’t mean.
I’m crazy and emotional.
But I will always be there for the people I care about.
And when I care, I never stop. I just do.
Take me as I am.
NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY
